“Sometimes,' said Pooh, 'the smallest things take up the most room in your heart.”
- A.A. Milne
After seven happy years together, I was forced to say goodbye to my dear cat, Marley. As some of you know, Marley was epileptic, and on Thursday he suffered a seizure that proved to be too much for his nervous system. My boyfriend and I spent three days at the Emergency Pet Hospital, hoping for a miracle that just never came, and by Sunday it was time to say goodbye. It’s so very difficult to accept how quickly life changes! I spent Thursday morning snuggling with my boyfriend and Marley as he purred and head-butted us…I had no idea the nightmare that awaited me that evening.
I’m trying to take comfort in the fact that Marley lead a happy and healthy life for as long as he did. Vets and feline neurologists often marveled his health and spirit, considering that he had seizures on a regular basis for his entire life. We were often told that he was lucky to have found people, who were willing to spare no expense or their own sadness to ensure that he was as healthy as could be. I always thought we were the lucky ones to have the opportunity to share our life with such a sweet, loving cat. Marley’s epilepsy just made him that much more special to me, just another reason to shower him with love every second.
Marley had quite a remarkable life – not just for a kitty with epilepsy but for any cat. Times spent together were happy times, and Marley adopted his humans’ beach bum lifestyle with ease. While living in Oregon, we spent many weekends at the coast in pet-friendly beach houses. We took walks along the beach and watched Marley boldly explore a completely new environment (on a leash, of course). From Portland, we moved to Mexico, and because of the severe floods that coincided with our arrival, it took two planes, three taxis, and a boat to get us to Sayulita. A boat! Would you believe that Marley insisted on getting out of his carrier on the boat? He did, and everyone on that boat instantly fell in love with “el gato con ojos azules” (the cat with blue eyes). We spent almost a year together in Mexico, and while I appreciated that time then, I really do now. Free of nearly all responsibility, we were able to spend more time together than ever before and, sadly, ever again. And when it was time to say goodbye to Mexico and return to the real world, we made a home together in San Francisco but not without heading to yet another beach house, this time in Santa Cruz, for a weekend getaway.
I can’t imagine my life without Marley. Such a small cat had such a huge presence in my life, home and heart. Nothing will ever be the same. I will never be the same. The crazy cat lady life is one of great joy, but with that comes great heartache. The sadness that one feels upon losing a pet is only understood by those who have shared that incredible connection between human and animal. I’ll be taking a break from blogging and Twitter while I deal with my sorrow, console my partner and adjust to a life without my baby… I appreciate your understanding during this time, and I’ll let you all know when I’m back.